Saturday, July 30, 2022

I wanted to go somewhere I haven’t been before for my birthday this year. I really like being by water. The larger the body of water, the better. I don’t necessarily like being in the water, but I like being by it. It’s the sounds. The breeze is different.

Birthdays are a big thing with me. I think I place more importance on them than most people. They’re special. They should be. It’s a day for me. I can do what I want without feeling guilty about it. I spend too much of time making myself smaller so as not to take up space. Reducing who I am. An unhealthy trait, I admit. But yeah, it’s nice to be acknowledged.

Along with that, I’m basically a kid. I like figuring out something exciting to do and maybe finding an entirely unnecessary item to obsess over just because I can. Buy that thing off the wishlist that I always pass over. Indulge. Again, guilt free. Limitless possibilities.

I picked a spot in Michigan that I’d been hoping to visit for a few years. I invited my sisters and we trekked around on the trails and by the water. Like I said, I don’t like to be in the water, so I’m not the average beach goer. I’m the only person on the beach in converse, with a camera and bag on one shoulder and another infrared camera on the other. It’s a whole look. I also feel like every time I bring all that stuff, I end up using my phone more than any other camera. When I leave the camera bag at home, that's when end up needing it.

For all that effort, I felt a little off with taking photos. I feel like I missed a lot and my eye just wasn't working right. I may be a little burned out and that's disheartening. I don't want to be burned out. I need a jumpstart.